you were born for greatness

stuff i'm loving :D

1) youtube and its endless zelda music links: fairy fountain, lost woods, spirit temple. geeky but so damn good!

2) the smile on this dog's face

3) the fact i have a mere five days before i'm finally allowed to enjoy my summer!

4) the world cup. yeah...i never thought it would happen, but i have officially become a football fan...particularly where it comes to...

5) mesut özil, the midfielder for germany's football team - that guy has serious ball skills :P even though the rest of the team crumbled without klose today, his playmaking was still eindrucksvoll. plus, i like his smile!



6) the red velvet cake my sister made - although it kinda collapsed in the middle, it was yummy!

7) this quote, by dr. seuss: "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened." applies to a lot happening in my life right now

8) tenderoni by kele, the song that the title lyrics come from. his album, "the boxer", is out in three days, on the 21st - i'm excited! but not as excited as i will be when bloc party end this silly hiatus and get back to making the magic :D

lots of love guys, work hard for the final stretch! not long to go now...

<3

lost my heart between the sheets of lightning

if my life were a song
the chorus would be all about exams right now :( revisereviserevise, no time for anything else until the 24th

other things i'm singing about:

recent trip to the ministry of sound for joy's birthday with clemmie, maddy and her boyfriend ludo. to be honest, i really don't remember much about that night...the birthday girl had a LOT of free drink!





after that we had our leavers' dinner for oriental society with my beautiful oriental girlies...and erry :P


hate this photo but xin and erry look kawaii...so...*concedes defeat*

a slightly odd evening some might say? we chose a strangely empty restaurant in chinatown, where the crispy duck was pretty good but i didn't really like anything else. we over-ordered by wayyyyy too much, which was probs my fault. the rest of the gang MADE me order, even though i can't speak cantonese or mandarin. two of the others could :P too shy were they? more likely having fun at my expense :D i felt like i was blushing so hard because the waiter kept taking the piss out of what i was saying, and i could hardly understand him so kept saying.."what...? what?!" so embarrassing...

we wanted to go to purikura after, but the place was shut - and all the nearby karaoke bars were so...damn...expensive...ended up wandering the streets of soho contemplating gay clubbing as a last resort



so we went to erry's friend's house, also in soho, to hang out
this excursion can be summed up with the two following attributes, illustrated by my two lovely assistants inez and xin



honey and iron man. nuff said. and no, robert downey jr. is not my man.

squandered a bit more study leave at soph's house - which was basically a couple's night plus tamsin and inez...so we decided to be couple-y too! not gonna be beaten!

we played a lot of jess's mariokart on the wii...then the guys took over and played brawl for about three hours. i kid you not. so inez and i baked some pokeball cupcakes :D didnt take any pics...there was no point :P jess and iona's cupcake mix was HEAVY. it sat in my stomach for days after :P but the icing inez and i made was pretty yummy! we used red and white for the pokeball colours and then stuck reese's pieces in the centre for the pokeball clasp thing.

since then i've only been going out locally, did a study session with yuji in the park. i was productive, he wasn't, don't need to say any more :P also went for a waterfight with my old old friend daniel! then walking around queen's park and kilburn discovering random graffiti :)




these foxes are everywhere in queen's park! i love them, want to find the stencil so i can do some of my own...


i've known daniel since i was four, so it's pretty safe to say he's my oldest friend :D

oooh, i got a new laptop too (this was a while back...shows how terrible i am at updating this blog.)


lastly, yummy - and beautiful - malaysian kuih from tawana



sorry about the hurried post (on strict time limits here T_T) - i leave you with a quote that i found touching:

"We lose the people we love because we are meant to love someone else. We lose them because we are destined to find somebody else. It is a simple fact that this is sometimes hard to accept because we are too stubborn to let go of something that doesn't belong to us anymore."

found it on good morning good night, it's anonymous :)

title song = zorbing, by stornoway

and another fun song i've been listening to is "the bright side" by "we shot the moon". it's kinda punky, something corporate-style i guess?

<3

give me a word you can keep

today, i voted for the first time ever!

i felt weirdly powerful, even though my vote is one of millions - but i didn't care! it really did feel like a momentous event.
despite my mum excitedly taking a ton of photos of me in the queue at the polling station, holding up my poll card, etc. *blushes* i think she was more excited than me...

it's been a pretty stressful week, for the following reasons...
a) my computer totally died. it breaks my heart to see the screen flailing about, the hard drive completely totalled. ah well, new laptop! a field about which i know NOTHING. going to have to ask for recommendations...
b) french oral - need i say more? actually, i don't want to think about it.
c) the sheer amount of essays i've had on top of my oral work. keep pulling all nighters to try and stay on top of them, but the little buggers just keep popping up...

tonight though, i'll be staying up to watch the channel 4 general election commentary. really, i would vote david mitchell as my prime minister any day...ooh, or david tennant. despite the fact i found out he backs labour...bah.

well, now that my oral's over, it's on to the fun stuff! hope to maybe go see iron man 2 tomorrow, despite its terrible reviews, and dinner with friends - and then some shopping on saturday, to help out a friend ;) yep, this is serious stuff.

started the post-oral celebrations a wee bit early with alex and hannah's party last weekend...
we went to annie's bar in camden (which was surprisingly nice). free drinks, free peanuts, free MASSIVE hunks of cheesy bread - what's not to love? although inez did hit me over the head with one of the hunks and it was like a rock. but anyway, i was out of the house for the first time in ages and so glad to get away from the books...


danced to the latest and greatest from dotsch's iPod...
thanks to therica for the photos, though she ended up breaking her boyfriend's camera in the process :P
the girl in green is my good old friend inez :) we've been friends since the day we first met at interviews for music scholarships back in year 6 - cheesily enough, we told each other we hoped we'd see each other on the first day of year 7 with scholarships, and we did :P

anyway, i was SO glad to have inez with me at the party - mainly because i didn't really know many people, and the friends that WERE there were all coupled up. PDA-a-licious, need i say more? even though she kinda left me at the end of the night for her hand-holding man ;) but it was fine, i knew people by then...

the bathroom was crazy. i mean, seriously. everything was mirrored, and some of the walls were at weird angles to one another - when drunk, this really wasn't the best place to end up...


and the sink was odd too - it was connected to the mens' room, so you could see hands underneath on the other side, but nothing else...and yes, i screamed when a random soapy pair of hands grabbed mine.


next to me there is alex (jess's new boyfriend) and so-chan, with whom i'm DEFINITELY going to finish twilight princess this summer. YES. but only if she refrains from showing me videos of doctors extracting knee tumours...or whatever those gross things were....ew.

last of all, today's song is "halfway gone" from lifehouse's new album "smoke and mirrors". favourite song of the moment is actually foals' "this orient" but i thought the lyrics from lifehouse would go better with the election theme :) the song's pretty good too...

happy voting guys <3

don't look away anymore

this week's feature: ORIENTAL SOCIETY! (heavyish in terms of photos...as expected. click if you want 'em bigger :P)

yep, oriental society. the one club i still take part in at school..ha! well, all we really do is nom oriental goodies and fawn over hot asian guys (for example - THIS guy miura haruma, officially the only asian guy i've ever thought was attractive *dies*) but lately we've been watching weepy films - koizora for example. shed so many tears over that movie...

anyway, we decided to mark our love for o-soc with a yearbook page devoted to the club. and what better way than to camwhore for all we were worth to provide visual material for the page? yeahh, you know i'm right :)

we spent the best part of an hour at lunch taking pics for the page ;) standard

and we brought in cool asian stuff specifically for the photos. i brought a yukata (seen below), inez a mini kimono and a pink wig, jing her awesome sailor schoolgirl uniform!

pictured here with the gorgeous xin nee, who brought her asian loving to the yard with geek accessories - glasses, books, calc etc, cat ears and a soho tee (yep...cause chinatown is in soho...:P)

so the camwhoring began.
one example of a "typically asian pose": the sailor moon pose. "tsukini kawatte oshioki yo!"

sailor moon style:

oriental society style:

yeah inez, you know mine was the most accurate ;) kinda.


inez looks like a sushi chef :P or, y'know. a yakuza :D
then we took the asian loving outside...

in the stark barbican landscape in front of our school, there is very little in terms of nature :P luckily we found a willow tree to express the orientalism nicely!

miaow! finally beginning to get the nekomimi craze...

i made more peace signs than i've probs ever made in my life. AND I WAS PROUD.




poses choreographed by inez while xin took the photos ;)


getting sick of the shameless camwhoring yet? :P


tore some flowers off a bush for this pic. ah well, put it down to artistic licence


haha. despite practically skipping food (noming is very important in the orient!) to do this, we all ended up having a lot of fun. asian girls love nothing better than a good photoshoot...you know it! we should have one once a week :)

and the funny/ironic/retarded thing is, we didn't even end up using any of these pics for the yearbook. facebook screwing up made sure of that...GRR! ah well. we made a nice homage to miura haruma instead :D which basically sums us up.

japan IS coming! this is just a little taster of the oriental life ;)

ai <3

p.s. title lyrics come from "don't look away" by joshua radin. randomly been listening to it a lot this week...

words that would melt in your hands

favourite band this weekend is two door cinema club! i know they're not strictly brand new, but a new term (my LAST term at school - ever :O) calls for new music. try "something good can work" or "undercover martyn", or better yet, listen to the entire album "tourist history" on spotify.

their sound really reminds me of all the lo-fi indie bands who were jostling for space back in summer 2008. already nostalgic?! whatever, it makes me excited for this summer! especially since today is the most beautiful day - last night the sky was full of stars and a fingernail moon, and today there are no clouds, just streeeetches of blue sky. haven't seen a trace of that volcanic ash from the eruption at all! also just wanna say, eyjafjallajokull = best name for a volcano ever!

no idea what we're doing this summer, though. all my friends have organized so far is a daypass (sucky) to a music festival and a potential camping trip, but i'm the WORST camper ever. feeling shards of rock under my head and condensation dripping into my sleeping bag is my worst nightmare. i really want to stay at a villa, but some people aren't keen on prices...so...ugh! i hate it when we can't reach a compromise. i will have *something* to do this summer at least - booked a 2 week italian course to at least teach me some basics, and then a holiday with my family if they'll have me ;)

maybe i should book another course with a friend. usually i go on piano camps abroad, but i did a cooking crash course last year and really enjoyed it! photography maybe? or another language one - mandarin? (really shouldn't use this blog as my personal thunderstorm/thoughtshower :P)

still being a fool where the last post is concerned. and i take all the blame for that. am in serious serious danger of slipping past the boundary between my happiness and depression again, which is definitely not what i need. so hoping to try and forget all that at least for a couple of months. they're going to be the most stressful ones i've had so far - A2s. i know that in a year i'll just look back and laugh, because these exams will have become so trivial compared to what i'm facing - but right now they feel so important, and i'm suffering from the stress a little...

just got to remember to eat fruit, drink water and sleep lots! the last shouldn't be hard, provided i get over my jetlag (from japan - more on that later :P)

bisous! <3

only human

i thought the numbness meant i was over everything...
well, i was wrong.
it still hurts. i know it's natural in the early stages, but looks like you had no trouble moving on. in fact you managed to pretty damn fast.
but every time i think of you all the pain comes flooding back, and it's destroying me.
i'm just so sick of beating myself up over you. of jerking awake in the middle of the night fresh from going through memories of you in my dreams. only to remember.
i don't want to remember any more.
heartbreak is a bitter pill to swallow..:'(

everybody knows where we're going

:D

despite the self-grounding bubble i've encased myself in, i've had a pretty good month!

had a girly sex and the city-themed evening with my closest friends: cue increasingly alcoholic cocktails (until one friend, i won't name names :P was downing straight vodkas one after the other). also the baking of these:


(thats my friend inez holding the tray up nigella-style for all to see, and katy doing what she does best! kidding..or am i? also spot the biology penis. and guess who moulded that one :P)

they actually turned out pretty yummy, despite coming from a ready-to-bake kit. yeah, we were feeling lazy. jess had brought (along with many goodies) a massive pot of chocolate dip, so much chocolate smearing commenced! the one downside to our chocolatey fun was that once you washed off the chocolate your skin wouldn't stop smelling of (bad) cheese until vigorously scrubbed..ew.


in that picture, katy's painting a chocolate face on my arm, just like one of the pieces of art in her portfolio - which got her into wimbledon art school yesterday! :D clever bunny.

next anticipated event was the joint CLS/CLSG disco!


just to fill you in on this pic: we're standing below a "year 9" sign since the disco was making up for one we missed back in U4th ;) so the dress code was 2005/06 school fashions - emo, nerdy and nu rave. popped the lenses out of some 3-d glasses; voila, easiest nerd costume ever!


and to be honest, it was just as awkward as it would have been had we been genuine year 9s. my friends and i don't really mix with city boys in our year, so mostly stuck to the ones we knew/in cliques. luckily there was the dance floor to hit up and student bands (xandria's bf max's band Fracture, and harry michell repping This Is Big) to entertain us. and lots of cocktail sausages. LOTS.


went to the bathroom (pictured here with the awesomely dressed xin nee and emma ^_^) to quickly change for the next gig of the evening: passion pit!
unfortunately i didn't get any pictures, but had a really good time. passion pit were better than they had been last summer at reading - they seemed much more settled into their performing style, and the atmosphere felt like a beach party! so awesome, everyone danced their hearts out and had fun.

well, since that gig i've pretty much stayed at home studying *ugh*. need to get those grades! been listening to lots of new music, including onerepublic's fairly new album "waking up" - especially the song all the right moves. im a little bit obsessed with that one - the lyric in the subject box is from that song! GNAGH so awesome!

another song i loveloveLOVE: her morning elegance, by israeli artist oren lavie. the video is amazing, and it's just such a good song to slowly wake up to and get dressed to in the early hours. i adore his voice...

after a measly week of self-incarceration, i've already started going mad. tried to combat this tonight by going out shopping with my beloved jexie - to perve on selfridges' wondrous food hall...and men's underwear. natch. in fact, jess and i love stalking around the men's department in general, fantasizing about how we'd like our ideal men to dress :) *sigh*

later we went to the beauty dept so we could stock up on eyeliners, lipstick etc, and jess had a mosey around the actual FEMALE lingerie department - while a nice lady curled my hair for free :)

next we went to the denim department - and i spotted a SALE sign. *asian instincts perk up - designer for cheap lah!* jess and i found some amazing citizens of humanity jeans, reduced from £215 to...£30. AMAZING. thats cheaper than topshop! bought.

afterwards: SERIOUS ice cream was had (hazelnut for jess, pistachio pour moi) and a bit of buffalo biltong too, standard. *chew chew* jess and i should by rights be obese..

LASTLY THE AWESOMEST THING EVER. the official adventure time site! complete with free wallpapers, screensavers and an amazing game. GO ON, YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO.


ciao, o jaa mata ne! (im going to rome next week, followed by japan ^_^ so excited!)
<3

P.S thanks to xin and xandria for letting me thieve their photos for this post xxxxx